is it wrong to want to choke a bitch? how about 2 bitches? i'm feeling exceedingly violent lately. one thing i can't stand is women acting like stupid women. i hate this feeling. it would all be so much better if i would just be allowed to smear her face into the sidewalk.

i think i am going to call my tattoo artist this week. maybe that will distract me effectively. i probably can't afford it, but whatever.

so i re-posted an edited, more generic version of my zoe rant from last week (the one about how i am not cute) on my myspace and facebook last night... because it's something i've been thinking about. and sure as shit, zoe saw it this morning and CALLED mark about it. (stalker!) it isn't even really about her! it's about ME! how lame. anyways, that amused me.

on a more creative note, um jammer lammy pics are up on my internet "spaces". here's the facebook thingy.

leave it to... LAMMYYYYYY!!

right now i'm sitting at the black drop and remembering why i love this place so much. i can't stand starbucks mochas... but i love black drop mochas. how are they so much better? probably because they are made with love... hahaha

seriously, though. i'd say the drop is my favorite part of bellingham. :) i'm a little bummed that i didn't get up here in time to participate in the b.s. of comics show.... but i've been so busy lately, going to portland all the time and working for hell's belles and makin' lattes at the 'bux... but at least i got to SEE the show! lots of unfamiliar names, but it's good, and i'm seeing some great stuff. :) shoot, i should just start working midshifts on mondays... come up to the drop for a few hours every week... yah. that would be awesome. i really miss this place.

OH MY GOD THIS MOCHA IS FABULOUS

it makes me think how crappy it will be if i move to portland... not that i don't actually really enjoy portland, but 4 hours away!! omg! that really makes it hard to visit. :( but i'm pretty sure that's what's going to be in my future. things with mark are even better than before, and we are having so much fun... we get to be bff's and hang out and have great sexy times... the only shitty part is his crazy ex is around all the time, because he lives with angela in the same goddamn apartment complex, and angela is all bff's with her. not that i care about exes, but this one is a particularly huge cunt. i must say i get a little joy out of parking right where she can see me every weekend.

oh yeah, have i told you what she says about me? "she's not even cute! she dresses like a boy and doesn't even wear make-up!" HAHAHAHAHA! i seriously burst out laughing when mark told me. because, yes, i agree, i am TOTALLY not cute. i am so not cute that i've turned down gaggles of attractive young men, AND i'm currently banging my favorite man in the history of ever!! that's how not cute i am.

on a more serious note, though, those are the things i love about being me. i am comfortable enough in my own skin and my tomboyness that i can wear make-up if i choose to, and i can dress like a boy, or get girly, or do whatever i want, because i don't really give a flying fuck whether or not zoe or whoever thinks i'm cute or not. people should like me because i'm me, not because i dress like barbie and have cake face. i've always felt that way, and i feel like the people i date or even just hang out with appreciate me for being stef, whether or not they think i'm cute or whatever. plus i hang out with a lot of guys, and being a female, it's just no fun if all your guy friends want in your pants. seriously! call me crazy, but sometimes i just wanna be friends. who'd have thunk.

also, as a side note, i think by just being me that makes me beautiful. :) cheesy, i know, but i actually do feel pretty darn good about the way i look. ;)

HEY!! TODAY IS HALLOWEEN! OMG! did i tell you who i am going to be? UM JAMMER LAMMY! i painted one of my cheapy guitars to look like lammy's guitar (the guitar used to be black and white, btw):



sooooo rad. the biggest challenge is fitting my crazy long hair under my red bob wig. i think beth and i can do it, though. i have faith!! (i also have bobby pins and a wig cap.) i will definitely be posting pictures. ^_^